NoBoDy BuT YoU

2004-11-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

blogging. crappy feeling. haizzz.

2004-11-10T11:25:00.001+08:00

fine. i'm weird

2004-11-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

suicidal

2004-11-10T11:24:00.002+08:00

depressed

2004-11-10T11:24:00.001+08:00

living in solitude

2004-11-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

living life alone

2004-11-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

ok. so i'm done with my 1st week of O Levels. got thru Eng, Social Studies, Math paper 1, Amath paper 1 and Literature. wouldn't say it is exactly very satisfactory but I'm quite happy about my performance. don't think it is my best, but this is the exam that i loved the most. in a way. next up. Math paper 2. should not be a problem. i hope. Another 13 more days and i would be liberated from secondary school life. all my 4 years is for this big exam, as it is with every one else. time for a BIG rest. but not till 2 weeks from now.

on a more personal note. mood swings are back. it might be a medical problem or just my problems. sorrie to all whom i've hurt. haizz.

hmmm. nothing much 2 write already. every one help me pray for my O's can? thank you all very very much. =)

2004-11-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

Romeo loves Juliet, and his love for her tends to increase when she loves him; naturally, it tends to decrease if she doesn't. We can represent this by dR/dt=aj, where R represents Romeo's love for Juliet (negative love means hatred, of course), where J is Juliet's love for Romeo, and a is a positive constant. Juliet, alas, loves not wisely, nor too well: she is extremely fickle, in the sense that her love for Romeo only increases when the latter actually dislikes her, but her opinion of him goes down when he loves her. So for Juliet we have dJ/dt=-bR, where b is another positive constant. Find a second order ordinary differential equation for R, and solve it under the assumption that Romeo's love for Juliet is at its maximum, L, when he first meets her (at t=0), as is customary with love at first sight. Use this solution to find J(t) and graph both functions on the same diagram. Show that Romeo and Juliet are both in love only one quarter of the time. What is the meaning of the constants a and b? Find Juliet's maximum love for Romeo. In view of the meaning of a and b, does this answer make sense? Find an expression for the time it takes for the relationship to complete one entire cycle.

nice math question huh

2004-10-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

cheerfully sick.

2004-10-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

sorrie peepz. gonna reaali update onli after O's. i promise a real post ya? :D realli sorrie.

2 my bao bei: I love u alot as well. look on top at the blinky. :D

2004-10-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

can i really let go???

2004-10-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

1 month. so much happened. screwed up my prelims. everything. =(

whatever that's meant to be will be.

2004-09-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm long long time no post le. haiz. feel like im falling sick le. wish i could juz feel better.

time 4 mood swings again. having mood swings all the time nw. hai

grades having a negative gradient. prelims coming. crap. dead

2004-09-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

here's a post dedicated 2 mi sis 2 apologise 2 her 4 deleting her fotos accidently when formatting the com.

SORRY SIS!!!

2004-09-03T16:29:00.000+08:00

questions

2004-09-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmm.............................. life

2004-08-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

almost

2004-08-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

moving on. letting go

2004-08-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

self discovery

2004-08-14T09:00:00.000+08:00

Art of life - X Japan

music & words: yoshiki

Desert Rose, why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I'll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand.

The winds of time, you knock me to the ground.
I'm dying of thirst, I wanna run away
don't know how to set me free to live.
My mind cries out feeling pain.

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart.
In the pain, I'm waiting for you.
Can't go back, no place to go back to.
Life is lost, flowers fall, if it's a dream, now wake me up.
If it's for real, just kill me.

I'm making the wall inside my heart.
I don't wanna let my emotions get out.
It scares me to look at the world.
Don't wanna find myself lost in your eyes.
I tried to drown my past in grey.
I never wanna feel more pain.
Run away from you without saying any words.
What I don't wanna lose is love.

Through my eyes time goes by like tears.
My emotions losing the colour of life.
Kill my heart, release all my pain, I'm shouting out loud.
Insanity takes hold of me...

Turning away from the wall I can see nothing.
The scream deep inside, reflecting another person in my heart.
All existence you see before you must be wiped out.
Dream, reality, memories, and yourself.

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind.
Nobody can stop my turning to madness.
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart.
Why do you wanna raise these walls?
I don't know the meaning of hatred.
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies.
I only want to hold your love.

Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion,
shed your blood for pleasure. And what?
For love? What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Past and future prison my heart.
Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love,
on the walls of time over pain in my heart.
Art of life.
Insane blade stabbing dreams.
Try to break all truth now.
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain.
Cannot start to live,
cannot end my life,
keep on crying.

Close my eyes, time breathes, I can hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.

Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life outside my walls.

You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself.
You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth. Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?
In my dream...

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart.
I just wanna let my emotions get out.
Nobody can stop, I'm running to freedom, no matter how you try to hold me in your world.

Like a doll carried by the wall of time.
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in the chains of memory half blinded.
Losing my heart walking in the sea of dreams.

Close my eyes, rose breathes, I can hear,
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life, outside my mind.

Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am, what lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.

Art Of Life.
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart, you never wanna breathe your last.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A rose is breathing love, in my life...

2004-08-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

heyz.... long long time no blog le. juz rotting ard. so decided 2 blog a bit. thx 2 all dat tagged. n jess. xue is NOT me. xue's my fren. =D

hmmm....... looks like there's many different interpretations of my last post. haha. ok. din even realise it myself. till i read all ur tags. haha.

hmmm........... life's like a sin curve...... or maybe even a straight line graph made up of many connecting straight lines with very different gradients. :) 'nuff said

enjoy.... the Art of Life

2004-08-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

last chance. no more. i had better cherish it. and i will.

2004-08-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

almost 1am le. taking a break from doing homework. gonna go nocturnal coz i slept in the afternoon. feel a bit tired but im gonna push myself. no more slacking anymore. 1 more month n dats it!

time really flies at times. unknowingly. it's been 7 months le. it's not exactly very long, but it's kinda a miracle considering this is my 1st. hope we'll just last for as long as possible.

there's gonna be a singaopore fireworks festival held tomorrow at marina. dunno whether i should go. it's at 8, which means i'll reach home earliest 11. and there's school the next day. luckily no real test on that day.

nothing much 2 say anymore. ya. feeling less sad le. ya? so peepz. dun have 2 worry so much. hope i can handle my own feelings well. i'm never a smily person. so sometimes it's just my normal self. the quieter side of me.

2004-07-28T03:09:00.000+08:00

3 am in the morning now. woke up at 2 to do my homework. now i think i'm gonna get back to bed. been going nocturnal for the past two nights. haiz. living a very very crappy life now. hate being this way. but there's nothing i can do. wanna cheer up. but it's all just a facade. the true me deep within hasn't found the key to the locked door. hai. wished i could have the key now, then i won't be feeling so crappy.

2004-07-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

crappy dae.

crappy me.

crappy life

2004-07-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

numb.

void

2004-07-23T20:00:00.000+08:00

2dae's her BIG DAE!!!

2004-07-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

haha. as requested. so yup. here's an update. rainbow out again le. though its not realli showing on mi face. dunno y. but at least i wun sigh again. =) been kinda bz now. school work is juz stressing mi up. dun even noe wat 2 do when im on the com. juz go forums rot. den its back 2 sleeping n doing more work. blogging was somehow out of mi life. ha. after i changed 2 this add. think a lot of ppl dunno about it. oso gd lar. den can write more stuff. ha. kk. dun write le. neva noe if ani teacher is reading this. =X jkjk. if there r. drop mi a msg or something k??? =D

2004-07-17T10:25:00.000+08:00

hai. loving 2 much can hurt

2004-07-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

sadzzz

2004-07-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

unlucky dae 2dae. so damn effing suay. ytd go pierce ear 2dae kenna spotcheck. wtf. heng the hold neva close up. haizzzz. den kenna caught 4 long fingernails. haizzzz. heng mi stud neva got confiscated. or else i realli sian diao.

2004-07-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

cold~~~~~

2004-07-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

w00tzzz........ neva posted in like a million yrs le. been thru quite a bit of upz n downs lately. split personality coming back. juz 2 warn all of u hu's reading this. dun wan it 2 come back but it still did. haizzz.

luv can hurt a lot at times. esp when it means alot 2 u. n she means a HELL lot 2 mi.

2004-06-25T17:10:00.002+08:00

gonna go crazy

2004-06-25T17:10:00.001+08:00

depressed

2004-06-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

going mad

2004-06-25T17:09:00.000+08:00

hai.

2004-06-17T19:35:00.000+08:00

你的微笑

喜欢用我的音调唱出你的味道
这一秒有种感觉甜蜜的发酵
一百种言语知道爱有一个声道
才明了是你眼神传来的暗号

太多的幸福报到拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑投入你怀里然后撒娇
不需要别人来教把爱紧紧抓牢
这一秒决定拥抱你给的美好

爱情是你独特的味道在我的心中围绕
别人都不了
只有你知道因为你
世界不再单调我的微笑
你明白就很好
你就像月亮绕着轨道
拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑
编织了每一个奇妙

2004-06-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

haiz... sadz sadz sadz. cant help but feel sad. ARGH!!!!!!

2004-06-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

going back 2 mi introvert self again. n hating it. argh!!!!

2004-06-15T16:23:00.000+08:00

hai. think either mi rams or mi hdd is dying. its giving mi errors like all the time now. highly suspecting its mi rams. gonna RMA it when i go down 2 SLS. but im like damn lazy 2 go down coz its like kinda far. its at bugis btw 4 those hu dunno. going crazi literally these few daes. been 2 daes le. lost a chance 2dae. haiz. consider mi unlucky ba. but sat's not so far away. (i hope) gonna try 2 accomplish as much as possible this week so dat i wun have 2 worrie next week. but think im juz gonna slack a lot n not do wat i shud. haizzzz. im juz such a failure

2004-06-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

damn. the post i typed in mel's house went MIA!!! nvm. i shall retype it. argh!

hmmm. thonned at mel's house ytd. was juz rotting there actually. her room turned into a GAMBLING DEN throughout the nite!!! hai. guys will b guys.

hmmm. we met at 2 at je mrt. i was early. way early. met her coz she wanted 2 pass some stuff 2 mi. n she oso had 2 make a trip 2 popular. hai. tried 2 convince her 2 go 2 mel's house. but 2 no avail. =(

ok. so its juz mi. jz. rach. nette. cheak. wn n her bf. kim peng. n wj at je. the rest were 2 like go straight 2 her house.

hmmm. 4 the after noon. we chionged 2 gore movies. battle Royale II n Ichi the Killer. 4 those hu hasn't heard of Ichi the Killer. do a search 4 the preview. if u can stomach it. den watch e movie. i have the vcd btw. =) den its dinner at the nearby coffeeshop. had mixed rice even though i wasnt hungry.

den nite came. n its when all the real fun began. mahjong tables out. decks of cards out. it was a nite of playing n playing. more of cards den mahjong. i stuck by mi 'no gambling' rule n din gamble at all. juz rotted around in bed enjoying the air con.

ytd nite was oso the opening of Euro 2004. they even betted on dat. ha. in the end they lost coz the results were kinda surprising! i didn't watch the match coz i was on the fone. =) had 2 hide in the kitchen 2 chat coz all the rooms were taken up. the living rm by the guys. mel's rm by wj n jamie. (jamie came later, way later) hehe. n mel's bro's rm by jz (coz of the com). in the end i sat neat the fridge n scared the hell outta jamie when she came in. =X sorrie jamie! wj. dun come n kill mi hor. i din mean it.

hmm. din slp thru the nite. n b4 we knew it. it was 6+ already. rach made pancakes 4 us 4 breakfast. i had the honour of the 1st piece coz i was damn hungry. the rest din wanna get outta the rm. so they got the pancakes later. haiz. i caught up with slp 4 around 2 hrs. woke up at 10 n packed up some stuff. meeting her at jp after her tuition. den i juz came home n koed 4 another 2 hrs. after dinner. here i am posting. n over at mel's house. they r still there! cheak. nette n dawn.

hmm. think i'll update some other time. (it shud b a looooooooooooooooooooooong time =X )but i'll try 2 keep this blog alive. luv ya peepz. n ya. u all r not 4gotten.

2004-06-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

no-brainer. introvert. boring guy i m. haizzz.

ps. this juz involves mi. no 1 else

2004-06-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

sunshine after the rain. everything's ok le. though its not perfect. well. nothing is. well. gotta run. go watch tv le. buai peepz. =)

2004-06-05T16:12:00.000+08:00

perfectionist mi =(

2004-06-04T16:55:00.001+08:00

i really think 2 much le. ppl may sae im sensitive. but now im like oversensitive. dun wanna feel this way as well. cant help it. sorrie if i have hurt u in ani way.

2004-06-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

hai. its mi again. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-06-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

freaked out

insecure

neurotic

emotional

personal conclusion : im the most boring person alive. im like worse den a living dead

2004-06-01T17:17:00.001+08:00

chinese O's over le. think gonna have a hard time getting an F9. haiz. its ok lar. noe how 2 do most of the questions. but cant care 2 much now. its slacking time 4 now. n something else. hehe. =X nth lar. juz stone around.

2dae had like full dae maths. study until wanna peng. something like 5 hrs of teaching lor. cant even absorb half of it. im like dead. haiz...

sianz. dun really noe wat 2 type. juz feel like updating. dun write le. go off le.

2004-06-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

2004-05-28T16:10:00.000+08:00

quite a bit of time since i last updated. hmm. oso dunno wat 2 update. lifeless. deaded. stoned. chinese O's in like 3 daes. n i haven started. now im like waiting 4 mi sis 2 come home. going out 2 eat at night. so decided 2 use this time 2 update a bit. shud b using this time 2 chiong chi. but i dun really care. i'm juz aiming 4 a B3. its possible. can b done. =)

hmmm. wat happened e past few daes. mi sch had their drama play 'mama looking 4 her cat' at the esplanade on tue n wed. mi went 2 watch it on wed nite. kinda short. a gd effort considering dat its all juniors n no seniors. the seniors juz couldnt b bothered. =X sch was juz rotting away in claz. either slping. missing her. or juz hanging around. nothing productive done. im so dead.

hols start le. but the 1st n last week is gone. gotta go back 2 sch 4 xtra lessons. dun realli mind actually as i get 2 c her. dun think we'll really have time 2 go out n stuff. haiz. gonna miss her like mad this june hols.

mi sis is back. think i go off le. buaiz... gd luck 2 all taking O's on mon. take care ya peepz. helath is more impt den wealth n studies no matter wat. dun ruin ur health bcoz of schoolwork. u got ur whole life 2 study n work. but once the life is gone. nothing can b accomplished

2004-05-25T18:03:00.000+08:00

hai. juz reached home from school. another sad dae 4 mi. been feeling liddat 4 daes le. cant take it anymore! hai. cant help but feel this way.

got back eng results. got like 68. a B3. so its confirmed mi L1R5 is like 13. not exactly bad but not veri gd IMHO. but results r not wat matters 2 mi now. mi dear is the most impt 2 mi right now. all i want is juz 4 her 2 cheer up. although i cant seem 2 help. =( haiz.. wat shud i do....

2004-05-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... sianz. think the clouds r gone. =) finally can c the smile once again. but its not back 2 the perfect life we once had yet. think it will still b a long way 2 go. but im gonna like stick till the end. no matter wat. also got nothing 2 write. ya. updated mi results. got back mi Combined Humanities results. im like so totally screwed. ya. update some other time ya. luv ya peepz

Eng Paper 2 aka compre - 33/50
Elementary Math - 84/100
Additional Math - 69.5/100
Chemistry - 84/100
Physics - 79
Chinese - 57.5/100
English Literature - 59/100
Combined Humanities - 54/100

L1R5 should b 13. target was below 10!!!

2004-05-22T17:05:00.000+08:00

juz changed mi skin. nicer now? nothing 2 do. really got no mood 4 nothing le. hai. although she kept telling mi not 2 feel sad. i cant help it. she's juz 2 dear 2 mi le. hai

2004-05-22T11:53:00.000+08:00

hai. still sad. cant do anithing. im really useless. called her last night. but it didn't make things ani better. im real hopeless. cant even make mi own gal happi. haiz. Chi O's in 9 daes. but im in no mood 2 study. hai

2004-05-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

hai... stuck in a dilemma. wanna console. but cant. exams juz over. got back most of mi results liao. did quite ok. but im not happi at all. its not mi grades. but its something else. something dats more important 2 mi. wats good grades without a life. without love. love may not be able 2 provide 1 with the necessary things 4 survival. but it really makes 1's dae. especially mine. it's way way way more important den other stuff. wat matters now is 4 her 2 go back 2 her old happi n mad self. if she cant. i'll try mi best 2. even though she doesn't really want mi 2. =(

hmmm... ya. so here's mi results

Eng Paper 2 aka compre - 33/50
Elementary Math - 84/100
Additional Math - 69.5/100
Chemistry - 84/100
Physics - 79
Chinese - 57.5/100
English Literature - 59/100
Combined Humanities - 54/100

ya. these r the results i got. though not complete yet.
but these numbers dun really matter. they cant bring happiness into mi life. but u can.

2004-05-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

hai..... 1 mth neva update le... dun think ani1 ever come 2 mi blog le.... juz here 2 add some life back 2 mi blog.... now in the midst of exams... but i have no mood 4 ani studying.... sianz.... mani factors... but i shall not sae no more... personal n sch stufff included.... not 4getting family stuff as well..... think it's juz mi ba.... noeing wat i shud n shud not do but i will still end up doing... haizz... so much 4 being the sensitive n understanding 1.... now i noe how others feel den.... not blaming ani1 here... its juz mi.... muz learn 2 adapt n control... compromise.... giving n taking.... but more giving den taking.... n not onli prioritising... but oso balancing everything... argh!!... y is there no scale..!!! i juz cant help but tilt 2 1 side of the scale!!! ppl have been telling mi this already.... but i juz cant help it.... haizz... sorrie 2 all dat i have neglected.... from all parts of mi life.... y!!!! settling other ppl's prob but mi own life is in such crap! all mi fault... as usual... haiz.. i wanna do wat i shud... but its juz so diff... so diff 2 let go...

2004-04-17T18:10:00.000+08:00

boring dae....

fug mi com.... temps so high.... maybe its the damn hot n humid weather ba.... but heat n water r definite NO NOs 4 electronic parts.... haiz.... plus low power output..... m poor com muz b suffering rite now as i type this.... =(

din go out 2dae... seems like all mi frenz disappeared all of a sudden.... myabe its juz coz i din ask them out ba.... but mi life seems so empty all of a sudden... (buds...dun take it 2 seriously.... im ok... maybe i exagerated a bit) 1st... she's having a gathering... so cant ask her out.... den mi com almost conked up on mi.... 3rd... the weather is juz so unbearable.... even the air dat is blown out from the fan is warm.... wtf man... think im gonna take a cool shower later... but i doubt it'll make ani diff coz the water will b warm as well... ARGH!!! haiz

sianzified

2004-04-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

haha.... 1 week plus neva blog le.... not dat im bz... juz dun feel like blogging.... haiz..... mi com is dying i think... now it takes like 10 mins juz 2 boot up.... fucked up com.... hopefully i can repair dat ba... hmmm..... ya... 2 all mmi frenster peeps out there... maybe i'll go write testimonials 4 all of u as well... sound a bit crazy ba.... but i really shud return favours..... since u all wrote 4 mi le..... =)

2004-04-09T17:52:00.000+08:00

w00t.... loooooooooooooong long time neva post le.... gd fridae 2dae... so slack at home 4 the whole dae.... quite song... 2dae slack more... tml den do hw... n revise... n study.... juz finish setting up mi 'sound system' in mi rm... added 2 more speakers 2 it... so its now a '4.1 speaker system'. sound a bit better den the old system... woo hoo..... really got nth 2 do rite.... i so bo liao until i go do this kind of thing... haha... nt sad animore le... 4 those still wondering if i m... everything's going quite well now... =) dun post le... a bit sian... tired as well... from all the climbing up n down.... nt writing le.... other time den i come back post ba... luv ya peepz

2004-04-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

time 2 update a bit le.... hmm... nt writing much nowadays.... no mood 4 anithing actually.... juz wasting mi life away in front of a huge chunk of metal... yes.... u r staring at it rite now.... hai....

targets 4 2dae:
finish up ALL hw
revise a bit
call some1
stonE!!!

2004-04-01T19:20:00.000+08:00

nth much 2 update 2dae... reached home at ard 6.... coz 2dae after sch gotta stay back 4 the SPA prog.... sian sia..... the bus trip home 2dae was like super fast... took ard 30 mins n i was in woodlands interchange le... normally it would take at least 45 min.... wonder if ani1 invented e time machine.... or maybe the teleport machine???... den went 2 the library 2 pick up a few bks 2 read.... been trying 2 pick up reading... but 2 no avail.... but i'll continue trying... another reason y i went 2 the library was oso 2 help her borrow a bk... she wanted 2 get it 4 a v long time le.... we juz went 2 woodlands library ytd bcoz she wanted the book..... but it wasnt on the shelves... so i told her i would help her check it out 2dae... n the bk was there... waiting 4 mi 2 take it out of the shelves n go under the scanner... =) so now the bk is resting on mi table....

went 2 mi mei's blog n saw this url.... http://www.zodiacal.com/acro.mv

Wu:

Take advantage of all opportunities. You must develop your creativity and talents. You are determined to prove yourself to others. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature.

You:

Financial gains and status are important elements in your life. You want to do things in your own way and on your own terms. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You need to learn the meaning of true giving.

Hong:

You are an 11th hour person, always succeeding just in the nick of time. The lesson of money is prominent in your life. You need to learn flexibility. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

quite mi lar huh.... go try it out ba... =)

2004-03-31T19:16:00.000+08:00

w00t... wo kan kai le.... =) realli shudnt think dat much..... muz set mi priorities rite le..... studies 1st.... everything else comes 2nd 2 dat..... but mi luv 4 her wun change now.... its her dat actually made a change in mi.... =) its a change 4 the better... not the worse..... =D at least the rainbow is in its full glory after a week long storm....

2004-03-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

nth much 2 write 2dae.... dun wanna kill mi readers as well.... so.... i wun b writing much... not really in the mood 2 update as well..=X okie... the weather 2dae is cloudy again... really dunno wat 2 do le... haiz.... we muz really haf a heart 2 heart talk soon... dragging this on wun do.... so 2dae mi dae in sch wasnt dat gd coz of this.... but tot about it on the bus trip home 2dae.... tot about everything.... maybe its really mi ba.... i haf onli tot about mi feelings... neva tot of her feelings b4.... thus all this happened.... it juz pop out of nowhere... all this... i dun wan it.... but it juz comes... haizzz..... after 2dae i will try not 2 get 2 affected by it.... i'll TRY..... dunno if its possible..... life still has 2 go on... no matter how bad it is.... okie... i dun write le.... eh..... readers.... can do mi a favour??? pls tag....!! eh... ask u all.... wat do u all think about this??? juz tag ur ans in mi shoutbox.... thx a million.... =D

2004-03-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... looks like the rainbow is peeking out of the clouds after the thurderstorm now.... things seem to be on the brighter side right now.... and i want to enjoy the rainbow for as long as possible... =) but it's not exactly summer yet... the gloom is still lurking around.... until the sun rises and evaporates the rain... the rainbow still will not be able the present itself in its fullest beauty...

k... time to update on what i did the past few days now... continue on the event on wednesday... sorry for that short entry folks.... was very very depressed that day.... think there was a thunderstorm within me.....

Thurs
had school as usual.... after school i got to stay back together with a few of my classmates... roy, wanli, melody, weini and jamie... we stayed back because we had to do a chemistry practical.... eh... its more like we are the experiment.... this 'practical' is a trial run for the new science practical examination... the SPA (Science Practical Assessment).... it's rather different from the old practical examination... in the past... students carry out an experiment given to them and they must do up a report... now... the SPA is the reverse process.... the students are given an aim.... (mine was to find out the concentration of a substance in three different solutions.... ) and the students are supposed to design out an experiment and carry it out.... its much harder than the old style as the students will be closely supervised by the examiners.... if i'm not wrong... an examiner will supervise four students and grade them accordingly... the stress factor must shoot up like mad!!! good thing my batch is the last batch using the old batch for my O's... or else i think i'll just screw it up... it was around 3.45 when i was done with the planning.... got to go one more time next thursday to carry out the experiment.... haizz..... such a hectic schedule... no time even to breathe.... life of a typical average-score secondary four student....

Fri
had another chemistry field trip today.... pulau bukom trip on wednesday.... chemistry practical test on thursday... and now... electrolysis trip at science centre..... ok.... i'll skip the boring school part... because it's real damn boring..... four free periods today as my maths teacher did not come.... was standing outside the class most of the time as it was damn hot.... had a talk with my 'blooder' while standing outside the class.... needed someone to talk to.... was feeling damn sad then..... i was so afraid that my relationship would really break down then.... =( hopefully things are looking brighter now.... crossing my fingers and praying that things can really work out.... don't want to feel depressed and sad anymore.... it really affects one a lot....
after school there was a chinese enrichment course.... it's more like a talk cock session to me.... the speaker said that the course would be a course with no homework... it would just be all talking.... just tell us straight that you are just plain lazy and don't want to mark assignments... we won't blame you... =X after the course... there was still another course that followed... it's the chemistry electrolysis course held at science centre.... wasn't in the best of moods at that time... been feeling like that for the past few days as well... maybe it's insecurity.... i'm not sure... kinda weird for a guy to feel insecure huh.... ok.. back to the electrolysis course.... it's held at the physics lab of the science centre..... had quite a fun time there.... got some hands on at electrolysis.... hong ian went to continuously plate silver on copper using silver nitrate solution and copper strips... then he scrapped off the silver on the copper and repeated the process.... saying that he will be rich... i was like 'diao' whatever... plated copper onto my class key..... class vice-chairman badge and my swiss army knife.... you must be thinking 'wth... u mad ar... go plate swiss army knife' well.... you are right.... i'm mad..... don't you know that i live in woodbridge? =X oops..... then after that i reversed the process and unplated my swiss army knife and my badge... so now the only thing that's left plated is my key..... =) it's not very even but at least it's what i accomplished myself.....
the course ended at around 4.15.... damn.... fuck.... her english course ended at 4.... i can't possibly chiong back to sch at 4.15 and meet her.... wth.... unlucky... just plain unlucky... was like hoping the electrolysis course would end before 4... then i would have rushed back to school.... not been together a lot this week.... therefore i had to grab every chance to be with her.... a bit crazy huh... but i'm really going crazy over her.... since i can't go back to meet her... i decided to hang around the science centre to explore.... the stuff are almost the same as in the past.... so i just walked around and played with the stuff for around an hour or two.... then we went to rachel's house for fun... and also to try the pancakes that she made.... informed her last minute.... but she let us go to her house as well... she prepared her pancakes and it was like seven before it was ready.... we were already all starving like skinny rats by then.... it wasn't much... but it tasted alright.... and it could fill my stomach for that moment..... went home at around eight as rachel didn't allow us to go home.... was already dead by then.... eh... dead tired... i mean.... so off we went.... homeward bound..... walked to the 176 bus stop instead of the MRT as i was so tired that i don't want to walk anymore... then alison decided that she would take a taxi home... it was already late by then... ok... so we changed our mind and we all took a taxi instead... sharing the cost amoung us.... it's much more expensive but at least we would not reach home at like ten at night... first to get off was hong ian... the wilfred accompanied alison home.... then i was the last to get off.... well... i live the furthest... can't be helped.... the price came up to $12.50.... not very expensive... considering four people took the taxi... well... i reached home at around 8.45.... if i took the bus... think i'll reach home at like 10? immediately called her when i reached home.... didn't talk for long as we didn't really have much to talk then.... put down the phone at 9 as she wanted to watch tv.... so i just slacked in bed.... was plannin to bathe.... but i drifted away into dreamland before i had the chance to even remind myself that i haven't bathed....!!! slept from 9 to 3+ in the morning.... it was then that i realized i haven't bathed.... as i was still in my school uniform.... normally if i woke up in hte middle of the night i would just go back to sleep... but it was different then... i was sticky and stinky.... got out of bed and went to bathe... at 3+ in the morning...=X couldn't possibly go back to sleep after i bathed.... so i just went to watch lilo and stitch... watched for around an hour.... then i got so tired that i went back to sleep in my comfort spot...

Sat
CIP today.... BORING!!! slept at around 5... woke up at 7...... crap!!! ok.. so be it... my sucky life.... reached school at around 8.45.... collected my class tee.... it's in pink!!! not bad... =) and it didn't carry a hefty pricetag... it's just $16... not like 4/6's clazz tee... theirs cost like $30... pure insanity for a class tee.... originally was supposed to partner with huiting.... two people to a tin... crap... budget association..... were allocated JEC as collection point.... in the end partnered with her... but wasn't really in a good mood for the wole day.... looks like the weather's still not looking bright... got a few donations.... not really much because i don't really care about the flag day... ended up putting in like around $4 of my own money in just to get the weight.... and they didn't check the weight... fuck... wasted my money for nothing... but shall not care no more.... no point... just treat it as donation... it's for a good cause anyway... went back to school to return the tins and also attend a motivational talk... wasn't really paying attention to the talk as i was really damn fucked up then.... i think i just closed my eyes... according to roy.... the VP was looking at me.... mayse she thought i was asleep... but i WAS listening... just that i close my eyes.... was on the point of crying at that time.... ok.... done with the crap talk.... it was already like 3.30.. so fucking late... she don't want to go out le... neither do i... was so damn tired.... so i just accompanied her home... had quite a depressing talk with her at the same time... our relationship was like already on the rocks... it's at the tip of the iceberg already.... haiz.... after she reached home... she messaged me asking if i wanted an umbrella... she also said that no one was at home... i rejected her umbrella then... but i asked if she wanted me to pei her.... actually i just wanted to see her and spend more time with her... a luxury that is as rare as a shooting star... or maybe a solar eclipse... she actually said ok!!! so i walked double-time back to her block... and went to find her.... she was looking for an umbrella so that she would have an excuse if her parents came home... was about to go downstairs when the lify door opened and... guess what.... her mum was walking out of it!!! shocked... stunned... surprised... i just went into the lift like nothing happened.... then she explained to her mum why i was there... surprisingly... her mum didn't force her to put on a strait-jacket and start interrogating her... i was worried her mum would find out and force her to break up with me... =( good thing that hasn't happened yet... after this... my heart felt much better... it;s like someone just lifted a heavy block of weight off me... i wasn't feeling that depressed anymore... it's going to be summer soon i guess... called her just now.... and we sounded ok... it's weird why we can be so cold towards each other in the afternoon... but we would be back to our old self at night.... kinda freaky huh.....

ok... shall stop here le... spent over an hour on this entry... and my eyelids are feeling a bit of pain right now... guess i need to visit dreamland soon le.... buaizzz peepz... take care....

P.S

AMY.....
no matter what.... i have always and will always love you.... and i'm really going a bit mad over you now.....

2004-03-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

haizz............. depression is killing mi!!!! wtf does she wan!!! really dunno wat 2 do le.... other den sink deeper n deeper into sadness n b drowned by mi own sorrows.... n no 1 seems 2 care..... no 1 2 tok 2.... haizz.... guys... dun blame mi if i really become a 100% introvert in the future.....

2004-03-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

woohoo.... 2dae damn little hw..... start of term 2 le... stress back... but at least it will push mi n make mi wanna do better... n oso start up the rusty little engine called the brain dats being hidden somewhere under mi skull.... did extra hw 2dae.... mi hist luv letter!!! so shuang.... at least i did something.... din while mi time away.... after ytd's demoralising time with mi amaths hols hw... i made a resolution 2 improve mi grades n 2 put in extra effort... gonna start studying after i off mi com... a bit mad 2 b studying at this time but dats juz mi... cant help it.... =) im certified mad... either coz im 2 sianzzz or coz of HER.... =D kaes... bu xie le... fingers tired after typing out mi structured essay.... i go off le... buaizzzz peepz

2004-03-19T12:28:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... long long time since i last updated.... think i shud update a bit on mi life rite now....

ok... i'll start with wed..... asked her out on wed.... almost screwed it..... came back from chalet in the morning at ard 8... was damn drowsy.... but i heck.... switched on mi com 2 use..... at ard 10+... really cant tahan le... so i was like thinking i wud go 2 slp till 12.... den get ready 2 go out..... well... time flies.. as u all noe... woke up at 12.45...... was thinking.... fuck.... im so dead..... so i called her.... den we decided 2 meet up at 2.... chiong 2 shower after i put down the fone with her..... den chiong out 2 meet her..... was early... reach at 1.40.... damn... i shudnt have rushed.... maybe coz i so wanted 2 c her ba.... din c her since last fri.... so was missing her like mad.... like wat im doing now.... i waited... n waited... n waited.... now time crawls like a snail.... waited till ard 2.15..... den i saw her image from far... =) all the waiting wasnt 4 nth...... went 2 orchard 2 watch haunted mansion.... quite a lame show..... the cinema was so damn crowded.... with KIDS..... argh.... cant stand them.... the suck... =X jkjk.... they were juz plain noisy..... okie.... the show was like damn short.... ard 1 1/2 hrs... but its ok when i spent the time with her...... hmmm...... after the movie.... we went 2 walk walk ard far east..... took neos.... den had dinner at far east.... by the time it was already 6.30++ time flies again... =( damn.... y cant the time become a snail.... tmd.... she actually wanted 2 go 2 the beach.... but there was not enuff time n apparantly.... the beaches in sg sux..... so we decided 2 go 2 sg river instead..... she wanted 2 go 2 e bridges near vch... but damn... i walked e wrong way.... went 2 esplanade instead..... but wen walked ard marina square instead..... coz she said she neva go b4.... so... ok... 2 marina square we go.... saw a damn cute bb there... was virtually 'stalking' the baby..... the baby was sooooooo cute.... BIG eyes.... den a small mouth n nose..... so chubby..... =) den the worst thing dat could happen came true.... her mum called.... which was = 2 going home time.... was already like 7.45 by dat time.... ok.... quite late le... so we walked back 2 city hall mrt station 2 catch the train home.... took the train with her 2 JE mrt.... den she said she wanted 2 check out the shop there 2 c if there were green peas... those without the white coating.... she luvs them..... but... 2 her disappointment.... they dun sell them... so i pei her go home from there... took 66 until her house.... den walked her up 2 her floor... parted at the lift coz her parents will kill her if they find out about us.... it was ard 9.15 by then.... she had miz her show by 15 min... the xun qin ji ats showing on channel U now.... okie... so its juz me left.... mi n the silence ard mi.... took 963 home from her home..... reach home at ard 10+... was the longest trip i took.... damn... the bus driver was slow.... go home.... showered... den used mi com 4 a while... den i was bound 4 dreamland....

okie... now 4 ytd... had lit extra lesson ytd.... couldnt concentrate at all... either im 2 tired.... falling sick or im thinking of her.... which option 2 choose... i dunno.... so stoned fr 8-10 in claz..... den din feel like going home.... went out with 'gang' instead.... 'gang' consisted of mi... mi ah ma... mi wai po.... mi grand aunt... mi blooder.... n mi mei.... went 2 watch the eye 2 at orchard..... madness rite... 2 movies in 2 daes... when i shud b at home mugging... n not going out.... watched the 11.30 show.....the cinema was like so empty.... other den a few 'hao xiong di' =X jkjk.. there r ppl... but nt as much as the dae b4.... coz its 11.30 -.-" watched till 1.15.... a lame show... nt scary de.... more like saeing the ghosts r waiting 4 reincarnation.... nt 2 haunt u....... but mi ah ma was like so freaked out... lol..... had so much fun scaring her in the cinema.... there was a scene in the movie where a ghost was like floating above the cubicles in public toilets.... the gals were like so scared 2 go 2 the toilet after the show... lol.... went 2 walk walk ard orchard after dat... BORING... orchard is the most boring place on earth.... maybe coz im a guy n im nt into shopping at all ba.... the crowds were coming into orchard le.... so its nt so ghostly animore.... went 2 cine 4 a lunch-dinner at ard 3+... was there till 5.... toking cock... n bitching ard.... when we were about 2 leave... it was pouring... so.... we were stuck in cine.... damn.... stoned ard till 5.30 b4 we finally escaped from cine.... walked 2 somerset 2 take train home.... reached home at ard 7... din noe y it took so long oso.... w00t.... brought $50 out... reached home with $4 in mi wallet.... was like footing the bill 4 everything 1st.... hope they will return mi the $$ when sch reopens....

when i got home... i called her... was like missing her so much.... den mi damned sis had 2 ruin everything.... i was toking in mi rm.. den she came in n kp about y i got a fone in mi rm n y she doesnt have 1.... tmd... den she complained 2 mi mum... could hear her in mi rm screaming her head off.... den next mi mum came in.... fuck man.... really gotta put down the fone le... was on the fone 4 less den 1 hr n i gotta put down... ahhh!!!... haizzz..... after dat... was a bit pissed.... so i plugged out the fone line n threw it out of mi rm... so now mi rm fone is gone.... damn... haizzz.... mi life juz sux....

okie... quite a looooong entry le.... gonna stop now.... go eat mi lunch le... update some other time ba... maybe i'll post a pic or 2 even.... =) luv ya peepz.... luv mi dear lotzzzz missing her always.... peace....

2004-03-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

=) feeling much better le.... juz put down the fone with her... n i dun feel dat sad animore le..... i noe.... i give her as much personal space as she wants.... we let our life continue as usual.... i dun restrict her.... juz dat like every1.... i oso have feelings ma.... so of course will b sad.... but gd thing its resolved le... life goes on..... believe dat we will still have a long way 2 go.... =) gonna miz her like hell this hols... onli gonna c her like on mon during maths lesson.... =( so peepz out there... dun worrie le ba..... esp hy... dun let mi unhappi things affect u k? =)

2004-03-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

drifting.... apart..... haizz..... where m i in her heart.... the top??? or the bottom.... i may nt b the perfect bf.... i have faults.... i admit.... but...... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...... been feeling v down n veri sad these 2 daes after she chose her frenz over mi.... haizzz.......... think i shall juz continue 2 drift... n drift..... n drift.....

2004-03-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......... feeling damn sad 2dae.... y i shall not sae... those dat noe mi well enuff shud b able 2 noe y... although i dun really show it... a bit disappointed.... no mood 2 sae anithing le... haizz.... izzit really mi fate??? 2 give in all the time.... n getting all the sadness n hurt back.... haizzz

2004-03-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

haven been updating 4 a few daes le.... think oso not mani ppl come 2 c mi blog le... but nvm.... i'll continue 2 update.... ok.. here goes... had a lit common test 2dae.. think im not going 2 do dat well... haizz... dun think im a lit person... oso dunno y i took lit... maybe coz i dun like the geog teachers in sch ba... haizz... later gonna b another bz nite 4 mi... gotta study 4 mi chem test tml... n oso do hw....!!! aHHHHH!!!! haizz... but its all worth it..... hopefully its all worth it ba.... okie... noe its quite a short entry.... but i gtg le... luv ya folks out there..... cya soon.... tag mi!!!!

2004-03-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

sianzified.... at home stoning now... i noe i shud b studying n not stoning.... well.. i will... later... so damn full now... juz had dinner... damn sleepy as well... think i'll study till i ko 2nite....

another thing... juz went 2 @@ mi frenster.... quite dead already... but if ani1 still uses it... juz add mi ba... nos__77@hotmail.com... sianzzz.... miz her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.... haizz.... boring dae... like every other dae of mi boring life... when will i find mi goal n target in life???!!!!

2004-03-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

wahaha.... long long time no update le... think every1 wud b thinking dat im dead or i abandoned this blog le.... but no... i haven.... juz dat i dun have time 2 update... sorrie peepz.... been loaded with soooo much hw... dat i always do till like 12 am.... den after dat go slp le.... so damn tired.... or else i would go nocturnal... go slp 1st... den midnite wake up 2 chiong hw.... wahahaha.... at nite cant use com... so neva come update..... but at nite do hw much faster.... dunno y.... maybe coz its peaceful n quiet ba...

okok... mi daes this week... not a really gd 1.... had a bit of misunderstanding last weekend.... n dat ruined mi week.. =( but now its ok le.... i hope... haiz..... not feeling as gd as in the past le... well... some things can neva b the same again... i think.... all dats left r the wonderful memories of the past....

been hooked on o2jam recently as well... not playing a lot... but its kinda fun... ddr style game... at least its not as time-consuming as gunbound.... but at the end of the dae... sch is still more impt... so i will try not 2 get hooked on the game... or ani game 4 dat matter.....

well... gtg le... i go jam a bit den maybe start on hw n revision le.... Os r juz round the corner... all sec 4s jia you ba... its march le.... juz ard 7 mths left 2 freedom...!!! GAMBATTE!!!

2004-02-28T18:50:00.000+08:00

heyz every1..... not having a gd dae 2dae.... infact it was quite a bad 1... well... heres wat happened.... had chem lesson in the morning... like all sat mornings... so went 2 sch... was still feeling ok... except 4 a bit of giddyness n blurness.... maybe coz im a bit not 100% ba... ok.. wat happened.... mi gal msged mi n said she is feeling damn pissed now... well.. its her drama stuff.... mi other fren... whu was supposed 2 reach sch at 8.30... overslept and reach sch an hour late instead... ok... it may seem like its drama stuff n has got nth 2 do with mi rite... well... i think so 2... but mi gal was like angry with mi... 4 wat... i have no idea.... mi dae's ruined bcoz of dat.. the onli consolation was mi pool session with hong ian 2dae.... vented mi frustration on the balls... so felt a bit better... but no matter wat... i still feel quite down... n im still feeling a bit down rite now... hopefully the rain dats hitting on mi would wash away all mi troubles..... well.... dun wanna write le.... cya folks another time.... luv ya all...

2004-02-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! think im getting sick le... haizzz..... 2dae shud b cheerful de... but i feel v numb.... haizz.... i dun wan this feelinG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i wan 2 b the old mi again.....

2dae got physics common test... think i got 1 qn the ans incomplete... haizzz..... damn... cant think properly 2dae.... wth man... i wan a A1 4 mi sciences... ya... 2dae oso the relaease of O lvl results 4 mi seniors... c them get the results like not so gd... think i nid 2 work way harder 2 get better results le.... i wan a single digit 4 mi Os... its possible... but i gotta work damn hard... haizz... stress ar!!!! think im like gonna b so diff after Os le... bespectecled... myabe holding onto bks all the time... even when i go 2 slp... coz i may have mugged till i've gone mad le... haizzzzzzz.... think im gonna stop here.... post another time.... luv ya all folks..... =P

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2004-02-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

w00t.... back from cest la vie 2004.... great show.... except 4 the appearance of d tay.... =X well.... she had 2 rush like mad 2dae... but was still a bit late.... so we chiong cab 2 vic concert hall..... was quite early... ard 6.50 reach there le..... c alot of juniors ard... but mi frenz haven arrive... so we juz go walk walk ard VCH till ard 7.15... was a bit late when entering the concert hall... so had 2 make do with rear seats.... well... its fine with mi... since i already watched half the show during their rehearsals.... so not a big diff 2 mi... the concert ended at ard 10.... wanted 2 pei her go home.... but her dad called n came 2 pick her up... =( so spent the remaining mins walking ard..... walk the bridges..... was juz in time when we reached the bus stop where she was supposed 2 wait 4 her dad..... dat was lucky... or else her dad would suspect things le.... haizz.... veri unwilling 2 c her go... was very =( initially... but its oso juz as well... at least she get 2 reach home early n safely.... if i pei her home.... she would reach home much later..... well... mi juz went off with roy 2 catch the train home... met up with ccw... ali... wood and mi blooder... hong ian... n we took the train home... reach home at ard 12..... went 2 bathe....eat instant noodles... n here i m now.... posting in mi blog.... which is quite dormant..... feeling damn hyper now... although theres sch tml... n i shud feel slpy n shud b slping... im not.... think i go ko after i post this.... gotta catch some slp.... or else i become cyclops tml... kk... gonna miz every1... esp mi dear dear.... think i go off le... or else im gonna b like so so moody tml... lolx.... nitez every1

2004-02-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVING SPLIT PERSONALITIES NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FEELING V DIFFERENTLY ALL THE TIME!!! WAT IS HAPPENING 2 MI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haizz.... oversensitive??? over-possessive???? i have no idea.... juz feel damn sad sometimes over small matters.... maybe it juz means 2 much 2 mi le ba.... neva felt dat much sadness n maybe jealousy b4..... been having this kind of feelings like every few daes.... haizz..... wish mi feelings were numb rite now.... cant take it animore!!!!!!!

2004-02-20T19:32:00.000+08:00

sianz.... nth much 2 write 2dae... dun feel really well 2dae.... both physically n mentally... haizzz.... 2dae during lit lesson i was so restless... wanted 2 burst so much... but cant... dats y damn gek 2dae... haizz... eh... think i stop writing 4 2dae le.... damn tired....

2004-02-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

hehe.... mi bdae 2dae!!! but not in the best of mood 2 celebrate.... maybe coz im falling sick soon ba.... 2dae like so blur blur de.... den so mani ppl in claz getting sick.... flu... fever... cough.... everything.... it all can b found in mi claz... but still enjoyed every second of 2dae.... although neva go out celebrate... juz pei her go home... but its enuff le... it doesnt matter where i spend mi dae... but whu i spend mi dae with... =D 1st thing in the morning mi claz made mi teacher so mad dat she walked out of our claz le... so its like the mood already gone le.... haizz.... maybe im juz suay ba....

okok... now 4 mi bdae wishes....
hope i can get gd results 4 mi Os this yr...
every1 i noe stay healthy n happi...
hope mi frenz n relatives dun do things dat they shud not do.... hope u all get wat i mean...
eh.... think dats it... i muz zhi zu... dat way den i can b happi with mi own life... =D

well... dats it folks.... i'll post another dae.... every1 take care ya??? best of luck 4 everything u all peeps do.... the right things though... lol

2004-02-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

wahahahahaa..... juz reach home at ard 6.30... den play a bit of lotr... but mi being the noob gamer.... was stuck... so neva play le... so posting mi dae here now lor....

well.... 2dae mi sch celebrated total defence dae.... so 4 afternoon assembly... the uniform groups put up skits 2 show the 5 aspects of total defence.... but it turned out 2 b more like half an hr of comedy.... i cant help but luff... coz it was damn funny..... shows how lame the sec sch ppl can b now huh.... at least its better den having our principal inviting some ulu ppl 2 perform 4 us.... or even worse... she toking 2 us 4 1 whole hr..... i rather opt 4 comedy...

after our veri enjoyable 'assembly'... mi claz had 2 stay back 4 maths group study.... argh.... the topic was quadratic equations n inequalities.... was so fed up over the questions.... 4gotten how 2 do them le... n if neva finish cant go home... so was very very very dulan when doing it.... but miraculously... i got the correct answers... thx 2 all mi frenz whu helped... well... i little reference wun hurt rite...

went 2 jp after sch 2 hunt 4 jamie's n nette's prezzie... jamie's prezzie was way overdue.... but nette's wasn't.. but im not saeing wat i got 4 them... nono... is wat WE got 4 them.... (hint : its lame stuff 4 nette... real lame stuff... =P ) was already like 5+ when we planned 2 go home.... its tiring 2 b in ncc uniform 4 the whole dae n walking ard after sch lor.... those whu donned it b4 shud noe....

think im gonna stop here le... gonna have dinner (porridge...-.-") den go do hw n chat le =X.... will udate soon... maybe later when im done with mi hw..... gtg..... buaizz... luv ya peepz 4 reading.... esp some1.... =D

2004-02-15T11:23:00.000+08:00

morning every1 whu's reading mi blog!!! w00t.... so happi now.... =D had so much fun ytd..... those dat noe mi shud noe wat i mean huh... esplanade ytd so mani ppl... but its nice there.... juz sitting ard with ur luv 1 n spending time 2gether.... ok... shall write no more le... if u all wan more... den tag mi ba.... den i shall update more

2004-02-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

w00t... 2dae so slack... so little hw... so much time... wahahaha.... tml end of sch week le.... FRIDAE!! finally can get a dae of slacking le... lol..... feel so different 2dae.... all tests gone.... those dat i predicted i wud fail i did.... those i shudnt fail i din.... so... all went quite well 4 mi.... at least the stress dat was pushing mi ytd is gone... feel so free now...

2004-02-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

hai.... another bz dae....!!!! cant finish up mi hw 2dae... dunno how 2 do.... n theres like 2 tests 2ml!!! really in no mood 2 even open up mi bk... let alone study.... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... hope tml wud b a better dae ba

2004-02-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

juz back from sch.... whahaaha..... so freaked up with mi juniors.... so dulan during training 2dae... they juz neva listen.... think they juz have 2 learn the hard way le....
found out dat the ppl in mi sch r all NATO... No Action Talk Only.... LOSERS!!!! do wat u sae... dun swear it off den go hide in ur turtle shell!!! lolx.... all respect earned gone in an instant.... wahahaha.... damn him.... sat half a dae gone....... going back 4 crappy chem lesson when all we do is juz waste time giong thru ws!!!.... no teaching at all!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MI SCH AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!

2004-02-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

eh.. ok... here goes.... sort of mi 1st official post... the other posts were all crap testing.... so... ya... here it is.... feeling v weird now.... not the happi kinda weird.... dunno how 2 decsribe.... think all of u had gone thru it b4... so think u all shud noe ya??? juz crapping.... haizz.... well... no time 2 post le... gotta chiong mi hw le.... maybe later den i'll update on mi no-lifer life ba... haizzz.... gonezzz

2004-02-01T12:53:00.000+08:00

sianzified... as u can c from mi blog.... mi 1st post 4 this blog... which happens 2 b mi 1st blog as well... dunno if im gonna keep it active... but i think i will coz im juz 2 sian online...